Today I have mostly been deppressed due to heartbreak from my girlfriend, and my bad grades. Unfortuatly times like this also seem to triggure my Therian and Vamparic sides of me. I just gave my girlfriend a whole thing of letters I wrote today, and yesterday. I don't want to "break-up" with her, but if HE is there I feel like I have too. I feel really horrible, but I do realize I won't be in pain forever. And hopefully neither will my girlfriend.
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I the imprinter have imprinted.
Alas' it was an imprint that wasn't meant to be.
I've imprinted on one I can never have.
The Imprintee shall be her name,
And I shall be the Imprinter.
It all started with a single laugh, a single text.
Now it is seeped in heartbreaks, secrets, and a realization.
A realization that I can never have her, never will.
Goddess why can't I have her?
Why must I love her so?
Is there any such hope for the imprint that was never meant to be?
Her very presence lures me in like a demon in its purest form.
I love her, and she loves me.
Yet, she also loves him the Nate of Nates.
She is so sweet and so angelic.
Her laughter is like bells, oh sweet bells.
Could she be an angel, could she be a demon?
Alas I do not know.
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Last night huge storms blew in, and a friend wants me to date as of last night. Personally I am kinda hoping my friend also wants to be my doner for my vamp side. It seems like I havn't had blood in awhile, so It is begining to get to me. As for my Therian side I told a random girl today I was a Therian, and she seems okay with it. Personally, I wish my parents were okay with me. I hate being so secretive around them, and I wish to tell them I'm Pagan, but their bible permits me too. Because it states witches are all evil, which we are NOT. And my parents believe everyword of that old thing. Sucks if you ask me, and I can't get on Therian sites at school at moment. Man do I wish I could chat with my Therian friends and be myself again.
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Today as always began as a normal day. I got up, got a shower, and got dressed. Then I went and watched Angel which is a pretty good show. Even if it is a Christanolized Pagan show like Charmed or Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Of course I also practiced with my energy excersices from my *hidden* book "Wicca For Beginners" by Thea Sabine. I am actually getting pretty good at it- thank the Goddess for that! Anyways I also snuck my Fledgling Handout book by P.C. and Kristen Cast with me. I love the book, and I love Nyx- she's my goddess by the way. However, her consort Erebus isn't my God- it's Pan. Yesterday, I enjoyed walking to the woods near our park. Most people don't know that it is a part of the park, so it is secluded there. My best frien…Read more >